Today i Turned 20...

SIX! ;p

Your Birthdate: February 16

You're incredibly introverted and introspective. You live inside your head.You spend a lot of alone time meditating and thinking.People see you as withdrawn, and at times they are right.You are caring and deep, but it may be difficult for you to show this side of yourself. Your strength: Your original approach to thinking Your weakness: You tend to shy away from others Your power color: Pale blue Your power symbol: Wavy line Your power month: July

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Most of what it says is total crap! but
its fun to read these things :)
love u all :***

The Parliment Needs Some 'Love'

Happy 'love' day to all ..

i know we can celebrate 'love' everyday ..

but people who know the value of love will know that it deserves a day to be celebrated and expressed in everyway you can :)

specially for 'those' .. the ones who are either always busy to love, or are afraid to show their emotions .. its a good day to give them a push, or space to remind them of what their missing ..

valentines has nothing to do with politics. . or religion .. to celebrate one of the greatest emotions .. is something universal that all living things experiance and share .. just like we celebrate freedom and peace .. love is also worthy of its own day. it does not attack any race or religoin .. so why is it being attacked?

some people think its a silly and meaningless day/occasion .. waste of money and time, those can simply dismiss it .. but they also shouldnt judge or look down on those who choose to enjoy it.

and there are those who are trying to stop it, on their very weak alligations .. "that it is some how attacking and degrading someone or some 'religoin'!" i ask them to go and try work and solve a bigger problem .. do something with a good cause, quit puting your noses in our lives .. and quit trying to control everything and everyone around you .. we did not vote for you and put you on your chairs so that you can come in and control how were supposed to live and feel. enough has been done already.

instead try and help the poor, try to stop war .. for example, call for support and aid for those suffering in iraq and ghaza .. and many many other countries. Honestly, you are wasting time and effort on trifal issues such as this one, your escaping from your real duties and obligations towards this country and its people.

I believe that this is the real message of love: caring for all the ones you love .. your partner .. family friends and specialy the people who need it the most, are the ones feeling alone, forgotten, naked and unsafe on some other less fortunate lands.

i would like to send a big 'love' you message to all my readers .. and to all the people who are deprived of love.

love u :*

"identity"

how would you want to define ur self?
more importantly, how can u define ur self?
what are the options that were given in our life?
most of the people i meet, ask for my name, my age, my job ..
sometimes .. its my hobbies, my car, my house ...
if we try to go broader here .. you will be defined for
your skin color, your race, your religion .. your political views ...ect

im starting to feel that each person have turned into a checked application.
you fill in the right boxes, and when your done .. you decide if you want to keep that form or not .. and if u need to be incontact with that form again ..
you will have to register it under a number .. or an electronic address.

maybe im not making sense.. but the image im seeing in my head is harsh cold! humans have lost their sense of touch. rarely do you see them welcome eachother with open arms, and a smile.

somehow we have managed with time, money and power to dehumanise people, turned them into forms and lines - territories, materials and positions .. no one cares how your feeling, who you really are from the inside. your surrounded with people but at the same time, deep inside you know your a stranger and alone. for that loss .. people are hating and killing eachother.

Our prophet Mohammed (pbuh) was the only prophet who did not need to make miracles for people to believe in him and his message, he himself was his own miracle.. the holybook (Quraan) he came with, and his heart .. his miracle human heart managed to show people how to live together .. but more importantly .. how to be at peace and love one another.

just a very long bit tangled thought :)
wish everyone is well!

Jan

how did Jan treat you so far .. ?

ive been loving it .. al7imdellah .. i think you can tell how a year is going to turn out from Jan ..

other than mo7aram .. its been all great news and happy days :)

i cant believe its been a year already since i posted this! mashalllah ... days really just slip with out us noticing.

anyways like before .. i was chewing a gum and decided to post something ;p

my miss you list:
will miss you reem :*

will miss you dalol :*

will miss you my other reem :*

i already miss so many of my friends and cousins ..

ive been so busy :s

and i ofcourse still miss my blog :*****

tc have a koot day.

*ps: i hope my readers know that i was being sarcastic in my previuos post .. i wrote it and i was very upset after watching the news .. so please dont worry im not a terrorist and im not going to bomb anything ;p

strap me to a bomb

on a school day,

so that after the morning...
there will be a beautiful pink fountain for the kids to play,
later, they can have fun gathering the remaining parts;
of their neighbors, parents ...
or even their own.

Strap me to a bomb,
so i can declare to the world
my way of thinking ...
beliefs and views -
trust me, they will only want to join.

Strap me to a bomb,
where the more people are there, the merrier
i will be a hero for killing;
the evil who disagree with me.
have no worries, its a fair game
the good ones who die,
will later want to thank me.

Strap me to a bomb,
so that after the blood bath
the image will be clearer,
for the world to see
that i was right
and everyone else,
is simply wrong.

*ps: this poem is inspired by the death of Benazir Bhutto.
may allah rest her soul and all the innocent souls that have died in war/suicidal bombings.
i have always wondered ... how possibly hard it is to just want peace in this world!

Happy New Year ya Gama3a

i do know that this is going to be a very special year :)

the best thing is when someone asks you:
"what do u wish for this year? "
you think very hard about it, and your honest answer would be:
"Nothing! i already have all what i want .. alhimdelllah .. :) "

so for everyone again inshalllah a great year ahead ..
love u :*

Confused!

i got an sms today from someone ... it was a trange number, telling me that her fathr had passed away, and where theyre going to have the "3aza" !!!

i tried to remember whos number it was!!! i searched my phone book thinking i may have saved the same number twice and thats why im not getting the name!

i then called some of my friends asking them if they knew the person who passed away "coz his name was in the sms" but no one knew him! the name was not familiar at all!

i felt so bad for not remembering her, i kept thinking i must know her ..
untill i gave up and decided to call, give my condolences, pretend to know who she was, and hopefuly maybe from our conversation my memory might dig up who that person is .. so i called :s and when she picked up her voice was obviuosly very different! because she was crying!! :s

i told her how sad i was to hear the news, prayed for all of them! she thanked me a lot .. and then i had to hang up!

BOTTOM LINE!

i still dont know who it is??? :`( but when i called she knew who i was!

im a TERRIBLE person!

we need to Hibernate!

its weird how in winter, u just dont want to wakeup!

but when you think about it, its not weird at all .. its only NATURAL!

most living things hibernate in the winter do not go out or move! they sleep for months waiting for winter to be over! animals that are rough and tough cant even handle the weather.. for example bears.. they hibernate in caves from October till May.

Where we!!! WE!! wakeup at 6am!! leaving our warm warm lovely beds behind.. taking a shower in the COLD! wearing layers and layers of clothes.. driving in our freezing cars .. that takes around 15 mins to heat up

then forcing us to actually not do all fo that BUT EVEN WORK!

my nails are purple x`(

they are asking us to break the courses of nature .. its only natural for our bodies to be less productive and active .. its only natural that we need to rest some more, eat some more and sleep some more.

why dont they get it! were human beings .. not machines!

i know this sounds like a very typical early morning vent.. but i was depressed and couldnt sleep all night because i kept thinking i have to wakeup at 6am when its 6degress outside!

its inssane .. wallah... someone needs to do something about this.

-HHHMMMFFFFF-!!

ok now i feel little bit better .. no not realy :(

To all the Hijajj out there ;)

ppppppppppp3laikum b alf alf alf alf alf 3afyaaaa!! ;)

i was supposed to go to Hajj this year .. but two major things in life stopped me from going .. now im hoping next year inshalllah ..

please please Allah let it be next year :(

i so badly want to go! i long to see Mecca and al Kaaba .. ive never been there before, i never saw them in my life ..

thats why i cant wait to go to Hajj. ive heard alot of others experiances, which only made me more eager to go through with it my self.

i think Hajj is when one reaches the sublime in his life, the peak of having an outer body experiance, being closest to your soul and creator.

sub7an allah :)

anyways so everyone 3edkum embarak .. o ed3oooooli inshalllah next year ill be there wearing all white .. and having the experiance of a life time :)

tc love.

*ps: so long to all the 5urfan (sheep) out there :(

hmmmm ...

im chewing an extra mint gum and thinking of absolutely nothing.
but the gum.

i now realise i miss manythings; one of them is my thoughts.

in other words i miss my blog :(