Thursday, May 13, 2010

things they leave behind


i still remember her phone number by heart,
its not one of those easey numbers to remember! i once asked her:
"esh,hal raqam! makintoosh!!? :p " and she said .. "who cares ppl save ur nomber no one will know it by heart"
little did she know that 6 years later i still remember it.. digit by digit ..
i have dialed the numbers a few times.. to have some stranger pick up.. everytime i feel like crying over the phone, but i simply apologize and hangup.

when will any of this get easier on my heart and memory. her face and voice arent as vivid as they used to be .. but theyre still there. sub7an allah the thing that i remember the strongest is the way she smelled. which ill never find anywhere else.. i got her perfumes and body lotions but its not that, its her warmth.

why writing about her alone makes me smile and happy :)
maybe because i feel like were connecting .. 7abeebty..
again "yumma" i miss you o i need u right now more than ever .. so please ..
be kind enough o give me a visit.. i really really need to see you its been very long since u last did.

love u :*

10 comments:

:::ShoSho::: said...

Awww that was sooo touchy :( You're talking about your mother, right? Allah Yir7amha.. O yisabrich inshallah..

The part about the number made me laugh, but really that is true, who dials ?? :P

No3iK said...

thanks shosh
lol yeh the number part always makes me laugh im still convinced that not all ppl rely on their phone books :p

Anonymous said...

Allah yir7amhaa xx

No3iK said...

thnx anonymous.. allah yr7am mawtana agma3een inshallah

eshda3wa said...

allah yr7amha eb ra7mita ya rab

swera said...

I dont know how i stumbled over ur blog and came across this post but i think it's the connection! I lost my mother 4 yrs ago coz of cancer and it devastated me! I even posted about it few days ago about the things i miss and it's the sme thing! I still have her perfume and clothes! and we still have her mobile number, we couldn't just let go even her car!

I'm really sorry for ur loss o allah yer7am mamatech nshallah and know she's in a better place :)

Marzouq said...

Alah yer7amha ya rab o edakhilha el janah inshallah! I know how u feel, sometimes I still drive to bait yadity and nobody is there.

No3iK said...

swers:
hugs

marzouq:
thanks man uve always been there ..
thnx

Reem said...

Sa3at u think u need to c her badly, but actually ur strong enough 2 get thru it. N other times , it would be 4 real, n u'de really need 2 c her, even if she's not 3la Balich.

Don't know how, but Yunnan just knows when it's those other times. N she just comes 2 visit, no warning ..
She's simply there, cuz she knows her baby needs her.

Luv u 7beebty

Reem said...

Sa3at u think u need to c her badly, but actually ur strong enough 2 get thru it. N other times , it would be 4 real, n u'de really need 2 c her, even if she's not 3la Balich.

Don't know how, but Yunnan just knows when it's those other times. N she just comes 2 visit, no warning ..
She's simply there, cuz she knows her baby needs her.

Luv u 7beebty