Thursday, May 13, 2010
things they leave behind
i still remember her phone number by heart,
its not one of those easey numbers to remember! i once asked her:
"esh,hal raqam! makintoosh!!? :p " and she said .. "who cares ppl save ur nomber no one will know it by heart"
little did she know that 6 years later i still remember it.. digit by digit ..
i have dialed the numbers a few times.. to have some stranger pick up.. everytime i feel like crying over the phone, but i simply apologize and hangup.
when will any of this get easier on my heart and memory. her face and voice arent as vivid as they used to be .. but theyre still there. sub7an allah the thing that i remember the strongest is the way she smelled. which ill never find anywhere else.. i got her perfumes and body lotions but its not that, its her warmth.
why writing about her alone makes me smile and happy :)
maybe because i feel like were connecting .. 7abeebty..
again "yumma" i miss you o i need u right now more than ever .. so please ..
be kind enough o give me a visit.. i really really need to see you its been very long since u last did.
love u :*