Monday, December 31, 2007

Happy New Year ya Gama3a

i do know that this is going to be a very special year :)

the best thing is when someone asks you:
"what do u wish for this year? "
you think very hard about it, and your honest answer would be:
"Nothing! i already have all what i want .. alhimdelllah .. :) "

so for everyone again inshalllah a great year ahead ..
love u :*

Tuesday, December 25, 2007


i got an sms today from someone ... it was a trange number, telling me that her fathr had passed away, and where theyre going to have the "3aza" !!!

i tried to remember whos number it was!!! i searched my phone book thinking i may have saved the same number twice and thats why im not getting the name!
i then called some of my friends asking them if they knew the person who passed away "coz his name was in the sms" but no one knew him! the name was not familiar at all!

i felt so bad for not remembering her, i kept thinking i must know her ..
untill i gave up and decided to call, give my condolences, pretend to know who she was, and hopefuly maybe from our conversation my memory might dig up who that person is .. so i called :s and when she picked up her voice was obviuosly very different! because she was crying!! :s

i told her how sad i was to hear the news, prayed for all of them! she thanked me a lot .. and then i had to hang up!

i still dont know who it is??? :`( but when i called she knew who i was!

im a TERRIBLE person!

Monday, December 24, 2007

we need to Hibernate!

its weird how in winter, u just dont want to wakeup!
but when you think about it, its not weird at all .. its only NATURAL!

most living things hibernate in the winter do not go out or move! they sleep for months waiting for winter to be over! animals that are rough and tough cant even handle the weather.. for example bears.. they hibernate in caves from October till May.
Where we!!! WE!! wakeup at 6am!! leaving our warm warm lovely beds behind.. taking a shower in the COLD! wearing layers and layers of clothes.. driving in our freezing cars .. that takes around 15 mins to heat up

then forcing us to actually not do all fo that BUT EVEN WORK!

my nails are purple x`(

they are asking us to break the courses of nature .. its only natural for our bodies to be less productive and active .. its only natural that we need to rest some more, eat some more and sleep some more.

why dont they get it! were human beings .. not machines!

i know this sounds like a very typical early morning vent.. but i was depressed and couldnt sleep all night because i kept thinking i have to wakeup at 6am when its 6degress outside!

its inssane .. wallah... someone needs to do something about this.


ok now i feel little bit better .. no not realy :(

Monday, December 17, 2007

To all the Hijajj out there ;)

ppppppppppp3laikum b alf alf alf alf alf 3afyaaaa!! ;)

i was supposed to go to Hajj this year .. but two major things in life stopped me from going .. now im hoping next year inshalllah ..

please please Allah let it be next year :(

i so badly want to go! i long to see Mecca and al Kaaba .. ive never been there before, i never saw them in my life ..

thats why i cant wait to go to Hajj. ive heard alot of others experiances, which only made me more eager to go through with it my self.

i think Hajj is when one reaches the sublime in his life, the peak of having an outer body experiance, being closest to your soul and creator.

sub7an allah :)

anyways so everyone 3edkum embarak .. o ed3oooooli inshalllah next year ill be there wearing all white .. and having the experiance of a life time :)

tc love.

*ps: so long to all the 5urfan (sheep) out there :(

Sunday, December 16, 2007

hmmmm ...

im chewing an extra mint gum and thinking of absolutely nothing.
but the gum.

i now realise i miss manythings; one of them is my thoughts.

in other words i miss my blog :(

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Story Time

i was up all night packing. our car has finally arrived, the ride from karlovy vary to pragues airport .. will take about two hours .. i kept busy eating the most delicious green apple i ever had.
as i looked through the window, i couldn't help but love how the greens wouldn't stop flashing in front of my eyes. i knew how much ill miss this sight, i knew i wasn't supposed to close my eyes, but my head kept getting heavier and so did my eye lids .. i leaned on the window my head against the glass .. wearing my shades, and i slept ...

i woke up two hours later .. i took my purse .. got off the car, on my way to the airport and suddenly i stopped!! you know the gut feeling u have when u feel like u left something behind. i quickly open my purse and i found my sunglasses! :D relief .. they're here ... so i keep on walking .. load the luggage, it took us around two to three hours i cant remember really ... the place was very crowded.
board the plane take a seat ... finally i can sleep now .. then a very cute air hostess comes to me and says "please would you please switch off ur phones" .. "of course" .. so i open my bag, i start looking for my phone .. @@ and i cant find it!!!! its like every girls night mare.
im stuck on an airplane and my phone is somewhere out there!! .. it must of been "it" the thing i left behind in the cab!!! i hated the moment .. felt totally lost and pissed at myself. i was literally strapped on my seat and was not able to do anything about it.


we landed .. as soon as i got home .. i emailed the cabs company asking them if they found a phone .. they replied back "YES WE DID" ;) i thank them, then i asked for their address so i could fedex it back ... and here how it went:

First of all
fedex thank you guys!! u did a GREAT JOB! although it took like two weeks .. but it was job well done .. so thank you :)

i wokeup to see a Fedex package right next to my face! ;p
i was sooooooo happy .. i hurried up to open it .. in side the package was a wrapped box ..

and inside the box was magazine papers! wrapping something else .. lots of magazine papers .. i open it again .. LOL and i was shocked!! @@ hint ... this was during Ramadan ..
the very kind cabs company .. wanted to make sure they deliver the phone safely in one piece and they also wanted to make sure it didn't get bored on the way,"keep it with good company" ;p so they decided to wrap it with a PORN magazine!!!! LOOOOL

*had to censor the pic ;p

every time i remember how it looked i cant stop laughing .. yes .. it was too much .. but then again .. it was for a good cause ;p i don't know .. now i can say that everything in life must have a reason, a good one ;)

moral of the story: try and be creative when u wrap something, oh and always double check after u leave a car or an airplane ;p

love u :* take care.

Friday, October 12, 2007

3edkum embarak :)

wish everyone a happy Eid with family, friends .. and all ur loved ones.

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

can't let go

clinging and choking ...
hugging u, releasing the pain,
swallowing my tears,
stroking and sobbing ...
soaking ur fears.
the more i try to push it down,
the more it fights to rise up.
i don't want to look at you.
i couldn't bear the feeling,
not being able to see u -and ur kids- when ever i want to.
so i keep pushing it down,
for your sake, not mine.
as it tries to surface up again,
the pain was resting on my bare lungs.
it hurts ... the burn, the ache,
i held it in again.
i was suffocating;
my heart racing,
my blood raging.
my throat turned in to steel,
i can no longer speak or tear.
i was going to throw up my own heart,
as i kept choking on it.

instead, i never got to even say goodbye.

*ps: to my beloved sister, u have no idea how much i will miss u, inshallah we will see you next year .. take good care of yourself and the kids :*

Saturday, August 18, 2007

another break

i know i haven't been posting lately, but i can say that; maybe its better not to post at all than post depressing stuff ... im going to be away on my very much needed summer vacation.
hopefully when im back, ill feel fresher and better. i really miss my blog and miss u all.

take good care :*

Saturday, July 28, 2007

raping my closet

*Update 3rd Aug: just got my clothes back! :)

my sleeping pattern is a complete mess but i really don't mind .. what i mind is this:
i was in bed 4:00pm someone keeps calling me .. i check the screen barely able to open my eyes and the light flashing in my face .. the caller is someone .. i don't know whats the relation title should be (supposed to be a friend - someone i know - an old woman i met - annoying person been trying to ditch)
so u pick! coz its all of the above .. long story bottom line is shes a a woman in her maybe late 40s or early 50s got kids and all .. got to know me apparently to help her out with shopping for her daughters ... or something else im still not sure .. very very annoying and never takes no for an answer. so i simply decide to press the silent button .. she calls again and again an again 5 missed calls all in like two mins!! so i start to worry thinking maybe its an emergency and i unfortunately pick up!

me: hellooo -very sleepy voice-
her: ooowww ur asleep when did u wake up
me: the phone was ringing and it woke me up.
her: ok i just wanted to ask .. where do u get ur fancy wedding dresses from?
-so i pause and think, theres no way I'm gonna say i got any of them from Kuwait coz shell want to drag me there with her.
me: well my recent dresses are from Italy and London nothing from Kuwait.
her: oh really!! well what can i do i need dresses for my daughter shes invited to a wedding and she needs to find something real quick and i like nothing here in Kuwait.
me: i have no idea im afraid i cant help ..
her: ok is it ok if i drop by today just to see ur clothes! I'm just gonna come to take a look thats all!
me: :S -wtf-
her: is it ok??
me: so u want to take a look at my clothes?
her: yess just a quick look ..
me: yeah sure 5alty 7ayach .. -weirdo-

i hang up go back to sleep was around 4:15 in ten minutes the bell is ringing :S my brother knocks the door and says "theres a woman with her daughter waiting for u outside"

i jump out of the bed freshin up real quick wear what ever i found lying there on the couch pulled my hair up and went to her she was waiting for me in the living room!!

i say hi .. ask her if she needs something to drink she says no thanks I'm fasting!! -fasting and got here in 10 mins! wow!

anyways ill try and make it short some how .. as soon as we sit she asks where are ur dresses??
so i get up .. pissed as hell and ask her to wait.

i go to my closet room, and i start looking at my precious dresses all of them innocently hanging in there! who's gonna be the victim .. so i had to choose .. four dresses at least just to shut her up.. all so nice sleek and simple .. didn't want to give away anything special :p
but all my babies are special :`( anyways i go there
and then she starts examining them:

her: hmmmmm .. is this what u wear?!
me: yes
her: they're soooo simple!! they're soo plain nothing on them!
me: yes that's my style i like keeping it simple.
her: well they don't even show that their designers clothes!
me: well i don't like that either.
her: ok. -totally didn't like them-
me: -YES!- plan worked!

then she says : ok then go get me a big bag so i can take them with me...
me: @@ take them!!! u want to take them??
her: yes .. my daughter will need to see them so that she could choose what she likes best.
me: -look at her daughter- ok which one do u like best?
her daughter: oh no ... im not invited to the wedding its my other sister. shes back home.
me: -!!! omg - so u want all four?
her: yes all four .. shell just want to take alook at them, if she liked any of them i might do the same design for her :S
me: so u will take the design ..
i look down with nothing in mind to say i was speechless .. its too late now. so i walk to my room again and get the dress bags .. i put them all in and give her the bags. she then looks up with a smile on her face and says:

her: what about ur daywear .. whats the latest fashion what have u been wearing?
me: :S -is she fucking kidding me- what do u mean?
her: u know what do u wear when u go out? i want to see.
me: i don't wear anything special all casual and simple really .. some are sport .. nothing special.
her: yes yes bring them i want to see.
me: theres nothing to see .. I've been going with comfortable look lately all H&M style summer clothes plain and simple .. nothing worth showing.
her: ok .. its ok i just want to see ..

i then walk in again and look at my precious closet! i again took the simplest plainest thing i had! like long tank tops .. plaaaain plaaain cotton stuff .. again they were four pieces all the same design.

i come out and show her ... she of course frowned .. since the person i know she exaggerates with her clothes usually.

her: omg ... they're all the same! and they're very very plain!!! soo simple!! nothing really..
me: yes i told u ..
her: i remember i saw u in many occasions wearing very special beautiful designs .. where are they?
me: :s - quick quick think of something - well i don't have them anymore i gave them away
her: u gave them away!!
me: every year i recycle my closet and give away clothes to the poor and some to the maids .. so i don't have what ur talking about.
her: hmmmmm .. ok fine .. ill take these too .. just bring another bag.
me: @@ u want to take them too!! u just said u didn't like them!
her: no its fine .. im sure theyy look nice if worn. and dont worry by tomorrow this time i will send the driver over he will return all ur clothes back!

-F*CK- OK ,,,

so defeated i march in put all in bag and give it to her! she takes them and leave ...
i felt .. violated!! lol i don't know how to describe it .. but someone just came in woke me up took my clothes .. insulted my sense of fashion and took my clothes and left! not to mention lied to me bout the just take a look part!

so there u go .. best part of the story its been FIVE days so far and no driver came over to drop them! i called her three times so far her mobile is always switched off! AND someone else i know said something about her .. having a new tailor and that she plans to have an exhibition in her place!!! so now everything makes sense.
she needed designs to sell .. and i came to mind.

anyways i felt like i needed to share this incident .. since i don't know why these kinda awkward stuff keep happening to moi!

miss u all hope everyone is well.. tip of the day .. keep ur closets locked and when someone asks just say u lost the key :p

Sunday, July 08, 2007

pale blue

silence breaks when ever ur here
warmth lingers.
i can hear drops of air sink in my ear
this is not how it will always be.
i might not be there when one day u decide to look up,
or listen ... to me.
when i stare at you and see nothing but you!

lungs warm the air we breathe in,
but ur heart is made of crushed ice

*ps: bout my previous post .. thanks for ur comments .. and for those who asked it has nothing to do with divorce .. 29 years of marriage then she passes away .. he never wanted to take it off .. kept it for four years. its off now because he had to wear a new one.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

happy days

mashallah June and July are packed with weddings ... everyone is either dancing .. dressing up or getting hitched! which is depressingly happy ..

coz when u get alot of happiness all at the same time .. seems bit weird ..
but i really did enjoy all of them .. the look on the mothers faces makes it all worth it!
specially when they cry :`)

speaking of emotions .. I've been through the most emotional week in my life, i think .. i needed to see a doctor because its been so emotional .. i cant eat.

one of the things I've seen was .. a heart being pulled out of someones chest .. with out having to touch it or surgically remove it. i have seen him take off his ring .. after 33 yrs of wearing it, after it became part of him, he took it off. u some how wish for that person to be happy inshalah .. some how.

i have also looked into the eyes of someone who's in "pain" .. and they stared back. when u really look into someones eyes u feel they're naked .. u just see whats inside, their head and heart .. when u touch their hands u know its all real. ur hand becomes their safe warm nest .. makes u forget all whats bad in the world, you experience feelings and emotions that are one of gods miracles.

I'm so thankful for the pain i get, the tears that wet my cheeks and burns my eyes, love that warms my heart and joy that brings butterfly's to my tummy.. all so simple but its life's great way of reminding me I'm live .. I'm so living this life .. living it to the core.

Sunday, June 17, 2007

a 100 No3iks

*i took this pic in india, so this is an indian redbull :p

1- im very social sometimes i think its a problem how social iam.
2- i have the worst memory on earth.
3- my friends keep giving me or caryying my stuff (keys-walet-glasses-shoppingbags-bag) because i always leave and forget them.
4- im not a food person i dont have a favorite dish.
5- i used to hate jap food, i still do ... maki is different ;)
6- i love eating cereal at anytime of the day.
7- my favorite color is green, and i love green olives :q.
8- i hate sneding smss .. i rather make the call instead.
9- im very honest. when i cant be honest i just shutup.
10- wiritng to me is like breathing. i write even when i know i wont publish i just need to write.

11- im 25 and so happy cant wait to be 26! ;)
12- i quit my job :) only coz i didnt quit on being ambitious
13- i love traveling.
14- i want to learn italian.
15- i want to learn the guitar.
16- i love italain guys.
17- im very slow when i type in arabic.
18- when it comes to love .. i fall and i keep on falling .. to me love shouldnt have a bottom.
19- i dont like kids.
20- i love writing but not so good with reading.

21- i love photography more than reading! i want to become a professional photographer one day.
22- i hate arab advs! theyre very racist and sexist.
23- im a feminist.
24- im petite.
25- when i travel many think im "italain" ;) always makes my day!
26- i want to go to the gym but i always find an excuse not to.
27- i used to want to gain some weight but not anymore.
28- i have a degree in english literature.
29- i want to do my masters in photography. or advs.
30- i want my future son to be just like 7ason bason, doda :)

31- i want my future daughter to be just like me :)
32- i dont know why but i feel sorry for paris hilton!
33- i love LOVE LOVE superman! "mr.roth"
34- i love wirting poetry.
35- india so far is the most alive place i have ever seen.
36- italy is the country i wish i was born in.
37- 300 was the sexiest movie ive ever seen.
38- i have lost my mother when i was 21.
39- im still not over my mom, i dont think ill ever be.
40- my favorite thing to do when travel is take long long random walks.

41- i love shoes. just like most girls do.
42- i think fat ppl should go on a diet.
43- i think smokers should quit.
44- i dont like the fact im writing "i" in each point!
45- i love giving/receving hugs!
46- i love painting too .. i have a general interest in art.
47- my favorite chickflick is "never been kissed"
48- my first chick flick was "untamed heart" cried my eyes out for a week.
49- i love "cold play" and "snow patrol"
50- i watch: sex and the city - greys anatomy - prison break - lost - heroes and jericho - scrubs

51- i cant swim, i saw jaws when i was very young! im still afraid of the water.
52- i used to be disgusted by roaches, not after i have watched "joes apartment" now i just feel sorry for them. theyre just soo ugly!
53- i started blogging out of .. not bordom .. but wanted to piss someone off :p
54- i love nail polish.
55- im 158cm 49kls.
56- i dont find facebook addictive.
57- i have a problem with our traditins, most of them dont make sense at all!! just trying to make life even more harder and miserable for everyone *specialy women.
58- i dont like using capital letters.
59- best time for making calls is when im driving.
60- going to "dans le noir?" was a life changing experiance.

61- meeting up with total strangers and making them friends is a habit of mine.
62- i tend to trust ppl quickly! bad .. very bad.
63- im an aquariuos and i love the number 6.
64- i like to keep my shoes in their boxes. oh and im a size 37 ;p
65- i dont know how to cook! im bad at cooking by nature.
66- i have friends 5 years younger than i and friends 20 years older than i. age to me is just a number. i literaly believe in that.
67- i dont like to rush things.
68- i have a very cold temper, but when im angry .. im scary! i rarely get angry.
69- i used to have a huge crush on eminem, did an entire presentation bout him :p
70- im a huge fan of vampires .. did an entire presentation bout them too! theyre so hot!

71- i dont care if its 2007 or 2700 i dont like gay ppl im not ok with them, its eew!
72- i love it when ppl smile :)
73- when i wakeup in the morning , im usually happy and in a good mood.
74- i love dancing.
75- i dont like "roasting" ppl. its a common thing in kuwait. its not for me. (roasting = `6a`3a6)
76- i dont like it when ppl call other ppl "om flan" or "obo flan"! keep ur first names!
77- i find it very very bad! that some marrried couples dont like holding hands in public! or showing emotions! when ur in love .. ur in love. no place or ppl should matter. as long as ur not taking it too far :p
78- my skin color has been called "caffeoleou" i just love how it sounds ;)
79- my favorite book is million little pieces!
80- im addicted to im in love with the writers sense of humor he CRACKS! me up!

81- im "addicted" to red bull.
82- my worst habbit is biting my lips.
83- im very picky when it comes to food or drinks.
84- i love having my drinks with no ice, if not then crushed ice, and always add mint!
85- i drink a big cup of black tea everyday!
86- that is why i think im anemic.
87- every two weeks i have to catch a cold or get a soar throat. illnes is becoming a life style of mine.
88- im allergic to our weather ( dust - sun - heat - ac ) i have many allergies im familiar with most alergy pills ( fludrex - zyrtec - claritine - sinus ) non of them work by now!
89- my favotire cologne ( unforgivable ) makes my heart melt! *guys go get it! trust me ;)
90- 29th-june-05 was the happiest day of my life :)

*i cant belive i have 10 points left to write! that was fast!*

91- i hate the number (111) or anynumber with too many (1s) i hate it when the time is 11:11. gives me a very bad feeling.
92- its a dream of mine to one day publish a book :)
93- ppl tell me i look like "jennifer love hewitt - amanda peet and eva green".
94- i dont like change.
95- i like pizza.
96- best fa6ayir is fa6ayir al 3ali :p
97- im very bad at teaching! i hate teaching.
98- i like ppl who look at the eyes when u talk.
99- i would never hang up the phone on anyone no matter what!
100- im a huge fan of wa6aneya and blogger :) i hate word press and mtc ;p

*after reading do i need to mention that im also a bad speller ;p

*ps: mi7sino doda!! HAPPY BIRTHDAAAAAY :) 16-6-07 maaan just wanna say .. u are really the best ;)

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

red sand

sprinkled golden stars
beaded on the dark velvet curtains of night.
rays of silk descends as light, of day
gives life to what is already alive.
water and soil, stone and leaf ...
more alive than some people are.
a smile and a blank face,
nothing to hide,
faces are very real,
their eyes are their souls.
you are the heart of this earth.

*to india

Friday, June 08, 2007

im back

i know i said a week .. and its been a month!
my trip to India was a life changing experience.
but things have happened .. many things .. life is just testing me i guess.
testing how much i can take and how much i can carry.
and in return im testing it as well .. testing how much further it can go.
i have missed blogging i have missed you .. i miss writing.
i think im back .. i wish to be back. hoping everyone is well i know now is finals times.
so good luck with that .. and congrats to those who are done with exams. congrats to those who graduated ;)

love u :*

Sunday, April 29, 2007


*Update 1-5-07*

Dear everyone :) i will be away for a week.
will miss u all so very mucuh :*
like always doda will be taking over.

i just want to kill wa6aneya for doing this to me! so get this story u will NOT believe what happened to pooor lil ol me :``(

i call 121:

me: did u disconnect my line again with out sending me any warning or msg!!
how many times do i have to tell u ppl JUST send me a msg and ill go pay! i cannot predict the future just tell me and ill pay u dont just disconnect my line like that. -i hate bad surprises!!-
him: ok ... calm down! inshalah we will do this the next time,, im putting a note for u right here.
me: -hhhhhhhhhffftttt- ok tell me how much should i pay now .?
him: 152kd
me: ok, thanks bye.

i getonline watany bank .. transfer money and pay online .. that was around 2pm thursday. same day it got disconnected.
i wait till its 6pm my line is still not active @@ so

i call 121 again

me: yes plz i paid my bill and im wondering why is my line still disconnected?!
him: u didnt pay!
me: YES! i did!! i paid like 4 hours ago ..
him: did u pay the entire amount..
me: i exactly paid 152 kd.
him: well im looking at ur charts and theres nothing here.. im sorry but u didnt pay ,.. maybe the system needs time to load check with us in an hour.

after three hours .. and still no service :@

me: HELLO!! plzzz whats going on! u said an hour and its been three hours could u plzzz reactivate my line ..
him: but u didnt pay i cannot reactivate it!
me: i PAID! its ur system that is slow!! go check some where else i dont know..
him: did u pay via internet ..
me: yes
him: which bank?
me: alwatany
him: ok ask them to send us a fax that the money did transfer to us. on this fax number ok.
me: -hhhhhhhhhffffffffftttttttttttttttt- ok!!!
him: as soon as u they send the fax, call me.

watany bank - tirrin tirrin -

him: hello how may i help u
me: yes plz . i paid today around 2pm transfered money to a phone line and they need u to send them a fax .. to prove that i paid! :s
him: ok ,, look .. stay with me online .. i will use the machine and i will be pressing numbers .. but u stay online dont hang up. when the machine ask for ur number enter it, the pin enter it, the fax number enter it ...
me: comprende.
him: -machine starts .. for arabic press one , for customers press 1, for account services press one, for madre shino press 1 for madre shino press 2 or 3 !!! it took us maybe 5 mins just to reach the number he wanted :S so then he ask me quickly enter the account number!
me: - omg shino hatha - ok i did ...
him: now enter the pin ... now enter the fax number ...
me: - are we gonna finish in this life time!!!-
him: -oooowwwwww- @@
me: what???
him: im sorry i pressed the wrong number .. we will have to repeat all of that .. plz wait again
me: @@ NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! mn 9igga!!!! :s :s :S shino hl system al mota5alif al `3abi .... !!!!!!
- so i wait another 15 mins!!! pressing stupid numbers on a very long long stupid list!!!! and the fax is finally sent

NOW .. i contact the frickin 121 to tell them the fax is sent!! so i call them I SENT THE FAX!! but there is no fax!!! BUT I SENT IT!!
yes but we didnt get it :@ :@ :@
him: call us with in an hour it will maybe arrive by then.

i call after an hour and ahalf
me: did u get the fax ..?
him: no sorry nothing yet!! u may call us in an hour it will maybe arrive!!
me: why do i have to call .. u just check with in an hour !!
him: no its better if u call to remind us .. i may forget to check .. u just call.
me: -- u lazy &$^&$%&- so i have to call or u wont check!
him: yes.

i call after an hour:

him: im sorry no, are u sure u paid .. i dont think u paid .. coz in our system its not showing that u paid.
me: are u saying u want me to pay TWICE!
him: well maybe u think the money got trasfered and it didnt..
me: no it did .. i checked the account the money was trasfered immediately.
him: i cant do anything unless i get the fax.
me: what am i supposed to do now!
him: call from time to time check if we get the fax or not .. or u can call al watany bank ask them to send another fax .. maybe they didnt send it!
me: @@ im not gonna call them again!! and the fax got sent i heard it get sent with my own ears!


me: 121 u mother ^$$^$%&&** DID U GET THE FAX!
him: no ,, we did not .. im sorry ... when did u send it
me: last night!
him: ooh last night doesnt count. u have to send another fax for today!!! :s :S

SCREW IT! hell with u, hell with the number, hell with the fax, hell with the company,
and hell with all these premitive systems weve got! the SLOWEST u could ever imagine!! and very annoying..
i was like making phone calls AS IF i work for them !! :S

i was late for over an hour to meet up with my friends, i couldnt get directions to where we were meeting!! i was totally lost and couldnt call them! :( -sorry girls :**-
NARFIZOOOOOOOOOONI !! if i was in the US i woulda sued them fo wrecking my nerves!! u know being nervous causes women to get wrinkles!!! now whos gonna pay for that! :p
ppl sooorry 3l hathraa .. adre thba7tkum i needed it OFFFF my chest :p
oh in case ur wondering i paid .. and the line stayed not working for three days!!
thats .. 72 hours! makes me wonder .. what kind of network theyre working on!

ive always been an advocate for them! and i still think they rule! totally better than MTC but they really need to work on their SUPER slow system.. we pay money we expect a good service. amazing how it doesnt take them a minute late to disconnect ur services but 72 hours to activate them after theyve been paid for!! .. its like they dont care.
bottom line:


Thursday, April 26, 2007

my ghost

Haunting pain,
butchering my gut.
tears burning my skin,
year after year.
i shall never be the same,

i look at it,
and it looks at me.
-it looks down on me-
im its prisoner,
unworthy to be free.
i love it, but not enough.

will it ever let me be,
i kill it -softly, very softly-
it leans, to kiss my soul.
-reeking with poison-
it is part of what i have become.

shame, unbearable shame
-pulling my bones out of my flesh-
that will always find me.
life; do not be like you should be,
so that i remember:
what i have done.

what have i done ...

*ps: thank u my anonymous -italian guy- even thgouh i know ur not for real! u made my day :D

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

chcoco bar the sequal!

i don't know if its me!!
or the places i go to!!
or is it just chocolate bar? :p
hehehe every time i go something strange must happen! it is freakin scary,
this will be short .. but it wasn't short, trust me ,..

The Story

i and the girls sitting out side in choco bar! ok ... and then comes in this kuwaiti couple ,, very young .. not married, obviously, from the way the guy was hiding his face with his hat and the girl covering hers with her hair .. like two little guilty kids with stolen candy.

anyways .. they sit on the opposite corner where we were facing them ,, first they were cuddling sitting next to each other .. holding hands .. talking and laughing which is cute .. but still felt wrong .. then the girl .. gives us her back and lets her hair down .. all i could see was the guys head moving opposite to hers and his hands going through her hair!!
not a small kiss .. not a quick kiss ... kissing kissing ... like really there! and he kept on pulling her hair and head ..
i and the girls stopped eating LOL and our reaction was BURSTING into laughter!!!
we kept on laughing .. and the more they kissed the more we LAUGHED
this is sooooooooooooooooooooooo un usual i have never seen anything like this done in a public place in Kuwait!!
we kept on saying: OMG OMG OMG!! LOL LOL LOL WTH!!
hello! ppl do exist .. GET A ROOM !!!
literally our eyes teared from laughter .. it was crazy .. and they kept on and on and on ...
like we weren't even there ..! @@
then they left but we didn't .. we were just sooo astonished by the event to leave.

Moral of

sooooooooo ppl, this is the new trend now. Go to public places .. and french the hell out of each other! and put ur hands up in the air like u just don't care .. yeah yeah! :p -stupid dance-

Sunday, April 22, 2007

HIGH WAIST jeans are back!!!!

lialy q8 requested we start "7amlat NO HIGH WAIST JEANS article 001"
and it started ;)

*on the left is the modern high waist jeans and guess what :s STILL UGLY! who would want a belly this long, it makes ur legs look shorter :/ the old ones kinda looked better, that is; if u had to choose from two hells :p*
as if we need any more ugly trends!!!cone heads .. and now this! :S
ok I'm starting a pact here .. ppl if we get high waist jeans like in every shop, on every poster, on TV and everywhere ...
please pleaseeeeeeeeeee just don't wear it!
it is the most unflattering thing u could do to ur body!!
u would look like ur gramma .. not years ago but like today!
hehehehe i mean i dont know! im just sad its here now .. so who's ever with me ,, will promise not, NOT,



this is what David wrote on every post! in case some are wondering:
"david santos said...
Thanks for you work and have a good weekend
21/4/07 10:36 PM"
ok moving on! Mysterious Dave ...
something interesting happened to the blog world ,, the Kuwaiti blog world I'm guessing ,,, this DAVID santos guy! left me a comment and i read his blog,i mean at first i liked it ,, got some nice stuff there .. and he sure knows many languages i also was impressed by the 28 thousand clicks he got on his profile, the 488 comments! but then as i was surfing blogs he was LITERALLY everywhere @@ in a freaky way with the weirdest comment ever lol.. so im thinking to my self ,, its a smart way to target and entire country bloggers and then ull get a great feed back from them! but isn't is also pathetic and bit ... sad! soooooo the reason I'm writing this just to make sure ...
did any one here didn't get a comment from our David guy??

Thursday, April 19, 2007

im so -maybe not- happy


i do what I've been taught and told .. i say and believe that if i do, i might then be happy.
i try many different things, in many different ways, i do some stuff, i say others, i meet with people ...i have tried on new colors and clothes.
left the country, yoga, shopping .. chocolate.. shoes ...
i have opened up a lot ...
i wrote, i tore, i even painted ...
at the end ... nothing but disappointment.
i keep thinking what possibly could be missing.
what is it that i didn't do, or say or think of, that would release me from this race!
its more like a task.

every human is on a task, its an obligation to try and please yourself, be happy.
we all want to be happy ... that's why we live this life .. no body wants to live it being miserable and sad. Trying/wanting to be happy makes us wake up every morning, and do what we all do.
it is the main reason for us, being happy and reaching the ultimate happiness which is of course in the after life, if we ever make it to heaven inshalah ;) -fingers crossed-

sometimes i feel like, wanting to be happy makes me unhappy!
which got me thinking I'm sure with all the variety of ppl around .. they all have their own simple little ways of trying to be happy when they're not. I'm really curious to know.. what are the other ways...???


so yeah my point was .. i want to be happy ... what should i do?

*ps: -green makes me happy-

Sunday, April 15, 2007

a hero

weak and fragile.
like a dry petal,
will break, if touched.
like a dead butterfly,
will shatter, if the wind blew its way.

-water drops-
still, patient and alive
cutting their way gently, quietly
through the thick layers of a rock,
reaching its chest, becoming the core.

make people witness
how hard this world is,
how wrong it could be.

adding colors to what is black,
for bravely putting up that smile.
your not just strong ...
your a real hero.

*p.s: pray for her health. and for all of those in need of our prayers, may they all be well very soon.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Thingeyat No3ik 5

remember me! yeah its been a very long time since Ive had a thingeyat :`(
Thingeyat No3ik 1 - 2 - 3 - 4

*Thingy 1:I've got many new things! one of them is my new DOMAIN
I'm so happy and proud! i cant describe it :`)

thingy 2:tislam eeeedich 5alty om 7ason bason a.k.a dooda :p it was deli :*

and tislam eedik 7ason.. ur becoming a great Sheff!! ;) keep them coming :p

Thingy 3:
this pic goes to Blasha :* just like u requested, this is indeed the shirt or may i say the 250 fils stitched buttons i told you about :s should i go back and punch the guy in the face!

Thingy 4:well when i and bella go to have fun-due .. we take the word "fun" literally :p
we usually order an extra candle :D and cook the marshmallows until they turn brown!!! crispy from the outside and melted on the inside!!!-DROOLS-! dip in choco and enjoy ;)

*Thingy 5:fa6aaayrr al 3ali is officially the best fa6ayer place Ive tried!
their falafil, pizza, zaatar cheese and almost everything is AMAZING!!!
and guess what! they deliver! theyre in ALrawda so im not sure where to?

*Thingy 6:yes this little green thing, is a froggy :p i called him KAROOSH coz when the maid held him up all i could see was his little squishy, white lil tummy!!! SO CUTE! his karsha tshawig.
anyways unfortunately, he died.. but ill always remember his lil tum tum.

*Thingy 7:i know this is old news! but for my birthday i got 3 birthday CAKES! can u imagine that 3!!
:D was really special :*
Thanks you, Thank you and THANK you :*

*Thingy 8:another greeny i have is my lil green nano :D the coolest thing ever! i just love it.
thanks ;) u know who :*

*Thingy 9:
THIRRD greeny thing joined the family, which is Bitlord!! yes ppl yes! I'm becoming more part of the new generation! now i can download my own stuff, i don't have to beg for cds and copies!
the first thing i downloaded was LOST eps. 12-13-14 ;) I'm soooo proud! and i couldn't sleeep!
whats happening is SO not happening i want to kill the writer :@
updates: Heroes is a DRUG!!!! @@

*Thingy 10:-sigh-
some body please explain his face!
i would like to close with someone i miss terribly ... and felt like I've been betraying kinda :p
my lovely hotty sexy .. superman :*** love u
yaaaa5ty 3l qamaazaaat !!
and im having a redbull as im posting this, so send my love to reddy as well ;)

love u all me readers :**

Friday, April 06, 2007

i miss

your smile,
- fresh sprinkled water on my face -
your look,
- wanting to be your princess forever -
your touch,
- every edge I've got, is softer -
your words,
- my heart blushes -
your scent,
- I'm finally home -
your warmth,
- why hugs ever existed -

- crushes my heart to miss -

*ps: salaaaamtich 7bebty "uknow who u are" i love u so much.

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

put my buttons

I've been very very very busy with social stuff .. and meeting with people and like doing a 100 things in one day!
being in more than 10 places in just one day!
so now im finally siting on my couch watching my TV, drinking my red bull and typing on my laptop!
hows every ones days? any big news? mashallah mashallah been hearing many good news lately .. inshallah DOOOOOOOOM!
i would like to share a weird story that happened to me ...

the button tailor!

i got some special buttons and wanted to sew them to this new silk shirt i bought .. i know its an easy task and i could do it myself ... but since i had a $^%452456 things to do, i decided to give it to thee tailor, i give him the buttons, and i ask him, can u plz just put the buttons?

hes like: yes jaaain ana sawi hada .. "yes i can do this"
me: when will it be done?
him: bokra soboh "tomorrow morning"
me: ok! how much?
him: robo denar "250 fils"
me: @@ nice! ok. thank u bye ...

- me back the next day -

me: hello ... is it done?
him: no :s
me: u said come in the morning and now its 11am!! and I've got appointments and i cant come here again?????
him: eee ana yinsha "yes, i forgot"
me: -grrrrrrr- when will u finish it???? x/
him: enta yigee sa2a kamsa "come back at 5pm"

- me back -

me is it done????
him: yes .. check it.
me: very nice! thank you :)
- hands him a half kd -
him: hada mayser "this is wrong"
me: no its ok, keep the change.
him: la la hada showaya felos "this money is not enough"
me: @@ u said quarter dinar!!
him: eee ana egol robo dinar 7ag wahid zirar! "i said quarter dinar per button i put"
me: @@ are u like serious!!!
him: yes!
me: seriously! ur not kidding ... u charge quarter dinar per button!!
him: eeeeee @@
me: - o way3eeeeeeee- x@

LOL idiot!!!

*ps: the new showtime updates SUCK! i miss having paramount and tvland :````(
*pps: someone should sue or kill or blow up who ever came up with this lame lame SAD we3 we3!!! MIGHTY
ZINGER ZIFTER adverts!!!!! :s :S as5aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaf!

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Aprils Crazyness.

so we all know what this is about :p
i have started my day in being fooled by a friend! she woke me up just to laugh at me x/ so then i started my own chain since i couldn't go back to sleep!
i have fooled many today :D ha ha ha ...!
ummmmmmmmmmm i seriously lost track of how many they were!!! but MANY!
out of all of them only three were smart enough to figure it was Aprils fools :p
gives the crown to zalabyaaa :*** u were the smartest of course :p
all the others hard luck ;p u know who u are :p hehehehehehehe wallah i cant stop laughing.
i had many many unexpected reactions and ALOT OF SAB!!! April fools is all about the sab u will get afterwards :p sab = swearing and cursing :p

so i would like to thank all the ppl who made this day possible heheheheheh u fools :p

so now .. who is willing to share what happened to them and what they did to others on this day .. or in any previous Aprils .. im very curious to know .. and i will post the interesting ones here :D

some ppl cried to day! some were yelling! and some were shocked!! @@ what was nice about all what happened to day was: i get to know a part of each one that i didn't know before .. from each reaction .. i learnt something different from each person. which was simply amazing.
now i know many love me more than i ever knew .. now i know some ppl really worry, some would kill me if i ever cut my hair! and ofcourse some were complere As*es :P hardest part was holding my laugh!

so yeah it was interesting .. again tell me some liessssssssssssssss ;)

Wednesday, March 28, 2007


is the lowest of low,
any can ever go.
gutter, below the gutter
stinks, and revolts
disrespectful, is the smallest
a human being can ever be.
people with wasted brains,
tongues that best be swallowed.
words that better be un-learnt
no aim, but to humiliate...
i just wish that someday,
u will open your eyes,
and actually see.

disrespect is ugly.
just like u.

Sunday, March 25, 2007


* i have watched it FOUR times so far! twice today @@ and i still want more!
digma and bella thank you :* for a gr8 time, digma thnx 3l 3izoma babes .. and my gr8 dad and sisters for another one! i have watched it so far in cinema marina, fanar and muhalab, i advise you to go and see it in al fanar ;) *

this is the only thing i kept thinking and im still thinking it after i have watched 300 TWICE! in two days.
and ill watch it again an again ... coz its simply KALB! that i cannot not want to see it again.
striking!!!! how beautiful every shot is to the eye!
how their faces are just not human like! they look like something very interesting, u just want to look at them some more!
their bodies!! LOL don't get me started on their bodies! abz!! legs arms, necks! shoulders!!
KILSHAY! even their toes LOL
SERIOUSLY this movie is KALB bimi3na al kalima.
oh there is one word to describe them: MEN!!! they're simply MEN.

i see guys with their JAWS down! so what do u expect us to do!
i love the colors of the movie! the music ... the cloth they used! THE REDNESS
how it moves and performs on its own! with every movement they do!

with ever slow motion shot ... the music again! the chills it would give everyone who's watching it! the soundtrack, the directing, the acting, the lighting ... the movie! is a master piece.
my favorite quote is: "my queen ... my wife ... my love"
"we shall dine in hell"
"give them nothing, but take them everything"

- takes a deep breath -

i have a word in mind here but i don't think i can use it ... i don't think, i just know i cant use it ...
anyways .....
shasawi b3mre ... i WANT TO SEE IT again ... so yalah ...
i thoguht maybe if i post this, ill maybe get over it! so we`ll just wait and see :p if this works.

btw i miss u allllllllllllllllllll :*

*ps: check out my friends blog, its a good read ;) Nostalgia, enjoy!

Sunday, March 18, 2007

cuz iam what iam ...

You cut me this deep
and ask me not to bleed.

You hurt every existing cell in me,
and ask me not to feel,

im human, and unfortunately,
we do feel.
so tell me ...
what are you again ?