Saturday, May 27, 2006
I do wake up this time, earlier than usual.
Get into the shower, dry myself, do my daily facial, get dressed ......
All of this, minutes passing by, and I'm not thinking of anything.
I'm not feeling anything. I'm just -blank-.
Something has happened, something very trifle and small.
I cant even recall what it was, but it crushed something immense in me. or just woke it up
It stopped me from feeling close, or excited ...
Ummmmmmmmmm ... I try and think again what could it be?
Why doesn't anyone get me?
That's what everyone on earth keep saying to themselves.
Is it true that no matter how many friends, family, and partners u have, you are always alone?
Nobody gets you!
I know we all make the effort to get along with people we know, to share their interests. I do know for a fact that it could be exhausting and it can just suck the energy out of your soul.
Even if u loved someone, that doesn't mean you should have everything in common, it is only natural to be d-i-f-f-e-r-e-n-t. Same thing goes with friends.
is there really this person, that you don't need to make any effort with.
someone that really, and i mean really gets you and you get him\her.
I'm a socially active person, I have a lot of relationships, but I always keep wondering, did I ever get to that level or not?
Even if I did, how would I know?
So that's how my day started-- full of Nothingness.