Friday, June 16, 2006
gravity ... is reality
now i was sitting,
ummmmm .... i lay back i tighten my grip
legs press against the metal .
i lay further more ...
my head is going gradually all the way down, my hair is touching the grass.
my eyelashes are being tickled by the wind and sun ...
open and close, its called "blinking" ... but i can feel the air brush through them!
my hands tighten up on the chains, i dont want to fall.
i dont want to get up. its ok to lose your balance for a while..
my head is down relaxed, my legs are down .. but im not touching the ground
im floating! im in the air.... moving very slowly
even my breathing, i can feel my lungs.. press against my ribcage ... then slowly ... close again.
my heart punds, playing along with my breath, a blood rush, sturring through my neck to my head.
everything feels delicate, everything seems special now
as i go back and forth, so does my thoughts and memories
one minute im thinking of the past, the other its the future
best time is when im thinking of nothing but the present
im still ,, im light and im floating. i love it.
i dont want to get up.
how sweet is the air. how sweet is the sun at this time of the day .. how sweet is the smell of the grass ... how sweet is the sound of quietness.
the chains are still caryying my weight and body.
feels like an outer body experiance :it is.
god i love this. i love writing about it.
i dont want to get up, i dont want to stop writing..
ok someone is calling my name in the background .... my eyes have to open.
they open .... the sound is no longer in the background .. its here ...
i have to go now . i have to get up.
i take a deeeeeeeeep breath ....
i already feel bad .. i dont want to leave. i want to fly.
i reach for the chains, i pull them, tight .... my hands are stretched now .. pulling
i pull my shoulders first, they dont want to, but they respond.
ummmmmmmmmmmmm ..... my head my neck is laid back soo relaxed
they respond too ...
my hair flys back up .. falls all over my face ,, it is so fresh ..
*i giggle*... i appreciate the moments i had ... it is all real, its beautiful how real things inlife can sound like dreams..
i try and remember them before i set foot on the grass ,, the ground again.
before i have to walk carrying my weight again.
i just love to "swing" :)
thank you Nour :*
p.s i have just realized, i love small letters :**
i dont like using capitals kilish x(