Look at me.

i barely touch u, but i can feel u-
im standing right here, right in front of you.
can u even see me? am i invisible?
ur breathing the air, the -AIR- ur able to feel, want and even see!
i breathe for both of us. ur dead iside, im alive, for both of us.

look at me, when im not talking to you.
listen when im not talking to you.
shut me up when i do.
i just want u to feel me, just know that im alive.

-STANDING- for me equals surviving, but u cant see it, can you?
ur eyes are so not deep, theyre almost flat.
i can step right inside when ever i want to.
but u keep pushing me, u dont really push
u just stop existing.

i know when i touch something, i give it color
u, u only kill my colors, im black and white.
rip me apart, shed me all u want
as long as u get to touch me, im willing to give it a try.

u think i want this, u think im some kind of a sadist miserable "thing"
one of your toys!
no im not, i dont even -love- u
i loath u, i love hating u.
i just want you to be alive, so that i can touch u

and when u do feel that touch, -i know u will someday-
i will -kiss- you.
ull know how it feels to be dead when u still have a beating heart.
ull feel skinless, soulless, and worthless

that is when ill smile, with tears in my eyes,
but it will all be fine,
i promise you, everything will be just fine.
just look at me for now, and when u do see me
it will be our little secret.

im stronger than u,
im stronger than pain,
i can look u both in the eye.
and cry.
im human! i never try to hide it.
and that is not a secret.
"pain" is just fine, isnt it?

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