i Miss moi

i havent laughed really hard in a while,
i havent been with real people for a few days now.
i miss that u know .

the reason im posting is that i have realized ive been very very, lets say "gloomy" lately.
i miss the lightness laughter fun i used to have around here.

oh well, come and goes i guess.
so no, im not going to vent, nag or bitch today.
i just wanted to .... oh ok, so theres no other word for it!
- ummmmmmmmmmm - ...
nope no other word.

so i heard that it rained and i didnt know!! i missed out on the first rain.
i actually learned that it did, from papillonas blog. how sad is that!!

ummmmmmmmmm ... i need a change, i need a new look.
my blog certainly does. im planning on getting anew template,,, so what do u all think?
its not gonna lose its greenness. Since I love green ;)
and what about my display pic, u think it should go to? Or should I keep it?

i seriuosly have no idea what date or day were in, i sometimes dont even know if im still in the same day or not? my days are all just smudged into each other:

woke up 1:00 am stayed up until 1:30 pm
woke up 7:55 pm went back to sleep 8:15 pm
woke up 1:30 am, slept 7:00 am
woke up 9:48 am and im still up..
really hoping ill stay up..
my target is 12:00 am .. so im wishing ill make it today inshalah.

Oh and did I tell u I stopped with the job hunt. Im thinking, going to the gym is much nicer than actually having a job! ;)

lovesssssssss hugsssss and kisses :*

p.s: i need a hair cut to.
pps: i miss dalol !! sooooooo much, i miss all my friends.

dimmed

motionless
look up or down,
theres no pathway
im not standing.
i cannot reach...
with the senses of my mind.
gravity had failed me

*ps: this poem is me this time.
*pps: listening to: tonight and the rest of my life - Nina Gordon. thnx scarlo :*

Somebody wake me up!

i struggled ,,
i fought very hard ..
i stayed up for three days, on red bull, hyper on the last day.
and it finally happened ..
my sleeping hours were back to normal ... u know wakeup in the morning, sleep at night and actually see and meet with real people.
now, im back to square one ...
it lasted for one day only ... :````(
i really want my life back..i miss the sun.

*ps: i had a beautiful 3eed hectic one! but it was nice.
*pps: watched "devil wears prada" slept in the first 20 mins-the out fits! (OUCH), "snakes on a plane" was closing my eyes half the time!!! sick violent movie!
*ppps: love and miss each and everyone ;*

we have no wings

i have done a lot of wrong, so far
i know there's more to come.
what's bad? and what's good?
life is not black and white
its not shades of grey either.
its colorful,
there's no wrong or right,
there's only different,
we sin.
it doesn't just happen and its not a thing
pleasurable, indeed "taste of life"
that is when i know
certainly, it was wrong.
call all deviation an experience!
-bleh-! weak people, senseless people
call it that.
were sane, we think, we know, and we do
"aware", is the word.
just for the sake of doing it.
why?
its viciously human; just pure human,
that's not an excuse...
but,

im no angel


*ps: since i have nothing going on in my life lately, tell me what do u think of my new NEOcounter ;) aint it cool i love the cute flaggies!! :*
*pps: 3eedkum embarak ;) moqadaman

Thingeyat No3ik 3

Thingeyat No3ik 1
Thingeyat No3ik 2

Thingy1:

Pekabooo.. Nosa showing off her new moves!
lates is, look at everything upside down!! ;p 3la 5alat,haaa wallah

Nosa`s new bunny face ;p
button nose!!!! -BITE-
Thingy2:
finally!! yes! my first Dunkin Bite in KUwait
Mocha heavan ;) - 3am 3am-

Thingy3:
i swear! theyre human, have some mercy x`(
it was 45 that day!!

Thingy4:

i loved the sence of humor!
Thingy5:
Special dedication to the OOOLLLOOO !! :p hehehehe
ziz from now on im calling u bu-al7ogga ;p

Thingy6:

a5eeeeeeh i missed u man!!! hes super with out powers! ;)
amot 3la badlat al 3eed wallah wa7alat ili kash5een

Thingy7:
i saw this on the saudi boarders! pissed the hell outa me
Thingy8:
for better or worst, for richer or poorer from day till night you and i, together forever and ever and ever, "tv is a mans best friend" :``(
-was watching weeds-

cuff me

pin me against the wall,
punch me once or twice
slice my flesh
cut my veins
bite off my ears
let me bleed, its your ink,
carve what you want on my skin
needles in my eyes
staple my lips
press a heated iron against my face
crack my ribcage
pull my heart out of my chest
then with all the grace...
break it
just break it,

you fool, i wont feel athing.



*!!!sh*t , where the hell did this come from??!!!

Hi, my name is no3ik and im an addict...

case1:
as i keep biting my lips
and as i ask u to quit biting yours
i think to myself...
why some acts, some stupid simple acts in life are so addictive!!

case2: my sister looks like a cannibal when she's studying, biting, eating her own flesh sometimes reach to the point where her fingers bleed what is scary is that she wouldn’t even notice!!

case3: my other friend, with out knowing shed pull out strands of her hair, what's scary is, shed go on and on, if no one stopped her ..

ummmmmmm .. guess what im referring to is bad habits .. i don't think I have known anyone who doesn't have one. but for some people, its more than just a habit, they cant function or think with out doing it, which i think, is addiction.

i want to quit biting my lips ..so consider this a No3iks bad habits rehab ;) lets all try to confess, then quit ..

HOW?... u tell me :)

Nexxxxxxxxxxt .....

close ur eyes, then read me

i wake up,
or did i just fall back to sleep
the crisp
crushed cloth
my skins odor in the morning
hold my face in your hands,
let me see your eyes
let nothing in "life" just pass by
not a single thing.
i sense, i hear and talk to her
life is a "she",
and she's beautiful
don't wake me up,
i don't want to miss her again.
i only can see her
with my eyes closed
:its a shame i cant touch you.

*ps: again, birthdays post is still on ppl.. click

No, not to your face

God bless Dandoon :*, guess its my turn now:

*update*
these are things i wish i could say to some people i know, but i cant, or dont want to. the first letters are their initials.

r: u hurt a lot of ppl but u dont know it.

rs: hes wasting ur time dump his sorry ass, its been more than 6 years already!!

a&t: i dont like it, u becoming mothers, i really dont like.

n: u really need to grow up.

s: i like u and all, but i think ur very selfish.

na: u treat ppl like shit when ever u want to! well sometimes even shit cant stand u.

a: i love u , i really do.

d: u should get married.

dr.y: im so glad im not gonna see ur ugly face, hear ur irritating voice, ever again.

am: what u did was very childish! and immature

w: i respect ur honesty a lot. i want more of it. ur eyes are beautiful.

AUK:plz plz plz call me!!!!! x[

sm: i know u are family, but sometimes i can feel hatred blazing from ur eyes. u do look down on ppl that will never change, i just know it wont.

sb: u need to be real, u need to stand up a little and live ur own life, quit letting HIM make all ur decisions!!

m: ur over sensitive, u need to be little bit tougher

sa: FUCK u big time, what u did to me in high school, ill never get over! o mom7aliltich btw. ur the only person i hate, ur the only person i will ever hate.

f: u dont know everything yet, i really want you to know everything!

bs: i havent talked to u in months, uve been my forever friend, but i see that our friendship is fading now, i dont call coz i dont have the guts to say this, but were so different now i dont think were friends anymore.

ah: i .. ummmmmmmmmm ... like u. but wait, i said that already ;p

mb: i had a dream of u the other day, u were wearing pink striped boxer shorts lol! u loooked gr8 in them.

nd:ur more than just a friend, ur a sister to me now, i hope u understand how much this means to me.

7b: if i ever have a son, i want him to be exactly like u.

Dave: i want to elope with u and never come back.

dr.p: u are truly the bestest best friend i will ever have, the thought of losing u scares the shit out of me.

ps. daamn! i know a lot of ppl!
pps. boutgh badlat al 3eed ;p
ppps. the birthdays post is still on, so plz bloggers do not stop, i will have a seporate link to it soon inshalah.

When is Your Birthday (Collection)

I want to collect all bloggers birthdays ... i think its a nice idea ;)
so .. here goes:

No3ik: 16th Feb, 1982

Dawn fairy: 22 September
GQ: 24 April, 1976
Day dreamer: 19 Nov, 1979
Snookie: 7 March, 1986
Spikey: 11 Feb, 1985
Common sense: 17 March 1986
Beetle juice: 5 December
*Papillona: 15 July
Honey: 28 Dec,1984
Marzouq: Everyday ;p
Baskin: 5 January
Dandoon: 3 Feb, 1985
Will: 9 Aug, 1992
Ex-dodo: 6 June, 198?
Carls: 4 June, 1983
Battlefield: 8 Feb 1989
Lialy q8: 14 Feb (Valentinesday)
Dooda: 16 June, 1986
Fuzzy: 7 Aug, 1971
Reem: 5 Mar, 1985
Jacqui: 4 Dec, 1983
Truth Seeker: 2 May, 1981
Yazeed: 29 June 1983
Mishmisha: 11 Dec, 1990
Fedo: 12 May 1985
Msb: 4 June, 1973
Zizo: 27 May, 1980
Delicately Realistic: 6 June, 1982
Princess: 2 Jan, 1986
Transparently: 7 Feb 1981
Soud: 27 Oct, 1982
Tinkerbell: 20 Nov, 1982
Si7leya: 22 Oct, 1985
Little astronomor: 12 Oct, 1992
Fuchsia spunk: 14 May
Minir: 29 September
Scarlo: 10 Sep, 1986
Hopeless poet: 13 Sep, 1978
Albandry: 28 November
Bo9ali7: 1 Aug, 1983
Um mit3ib: 10 March
Fayoora: 30 June, 1987
Phoenix: 28 October
Zalabya: 6 July, 1983
Lilacs: 3 Mar, 1986
Nunu: 4 March
il soosa: 7 October
jiji: 19 Oct, 1983
Digma: 4 Feb, 1980
Chikapappi: 13 Jan, 1980
Bella color: 25 Aug, 1983
Ot: 22 June, 1981
Mulan: 15 Oct, 1985

Amoora: 14 May, 1989
Cece desouza: 29 Jan, 1987
I live in q8: 13 Aug, 1977
Aurora: 11 Apr, 1988
Kuwaiti: 14 Feb, 1979 (Valentinesday)
Musaed: 10 May, 1981
Dr.lost: 26 January
Shakshaka: 7 October
7asoon: 4 June
Maze: 29 Feb, 1976
Samboosa: 28 September
..G..: 3 Apr 1988


to all of you, al3umr killa inshallah :)

i will post all birth dates here, where everyone can see ;D


ps. year of birth is optional, but why not?
pps. alyom e56obony wana bl soog lol it was fun! ;p
ppps. Greys Anatomy Season 3 !!

how do you know its going to be a bad day?

When you sleep at 9:00 am, then you get a call that wakes you up at 12:45 pm.

your still in bed, its very dark and you don't know what time it is..u just answer ur phone:

caller: alo ..
me: bleh ...
caller: alo!! zanob where are u?
me: haa .. eee .. kani
caller: ur asleep!! ok, wakeup, wakeup
me: aha .. eee ... ok ... ummm ... kani
caller: wakeup!! i need to talk to you its very important.
me: yeh, what is it? im up already.
caller: no no! i cant talk to you like this, i need you to wake up (t9a79i7en) and call me back this is urgent!!
me: - getting pissed - ok just tell me now!! what is it?
caller: i have to go now, call me, be quick dont go back to sleep ok? bye.

ok now, this you have to know, sleeping for only three hours i can take, BUT for someone to tell me they have something URGENT to say, BUT not now!!!! i cant handle. i really get frustrated when anyone does that ... they let you think, worry, go to some places all for nothing. why not just tell you straight out if it was that important? and if it wasn't the right time, why bring it up then in the first place??.. why didn't they just wait?
this is the second thing i hate most in life... KEEPING U HANGING THERE for no good reason! Actually there's never been a good reason.

i jump off bed, do the things we all do .. Then i call her.

(Sorry this number has been barred)

@@ !!!! WHAT?
so there u have it, this is the thing i hate MOST in life, the thing that tops alllll other things! BAD SURPRIZES!!! i mean if they have told me a minute ago, "were going to disconnect your line" i would've been smiling now. For them to surprise me with it, first thing after i wake up is another story! I HATE IT!! When there's no warning what so ever. i call customer services and im still sleepy and starting to get a headache.

"I WANT TO PAY MY BILL PLEASE!"

and don't u just hate it, when the first thing you do after you wake up is PAY money, i think its ridiculous i didn't even get to have breakfast, since were all fasting of course.
so ok, what else is going to happen!! all the things i hate are happening now. it couldn't get any worst.
i ask them to send me a message before disconnecting my phone the next time!! they cant just disconnect it! how will i know i need to pay? MO MUHIM...
they said the activation will take an hour.

so i use the home line, you know the phone with wires connected to the wall, the ones no one use or remember anymore... i dial and now i know what was the emergency, im ok now.

as u can see, i wrote this thing just after that call, im still a hungry sleepy pissed angry person. who had no other connection to the world but through the internet, well her blog.
i will go back to sleep now... hope u never suffer like i did... specially in Ramadan!!! MO SHAY.

bone appetite ;p

ps.to u know who (blogger) alf alf alf mabrook the only good thing i heard since i wokeup! u really made my day, atleast someone is getting hitched ;p